Then again maybe not…
Midnight. I get hungry and decide to whip up a concoction: a can of tuna flakes, a spoonful of sesame oil, a generous serving of pepper, some onions, and mayonnaise. Mix them together. Toast a bread or two. Et voilà! Midnight snack right in front you! Made painlessly! Best paired with chocolate drink or strawberry yogurt milk. No? Am I the only one who pairs tuna sandwiches with those?
Anything remotely related to cooking has never been my strongest suit. And let’s get it straight: I don’t even like cooking. I roll my eyes, maybe even shudder, at just the thought of it. Clearly, I can never romanticize a domestic life when put that way. And in case you were wondering: The tuna spread tasted… interesting. 😅 I think it was the sesame oil I decided to add just because. Don’t ask. Sometimes, even I question my own life decisions.
I can’t get you out of my head: Kpop edition
This LSS is as bad as the one I had with GOT7’s “Lullaby.” There is no use fighting getting sucked into such a great song. 😭 When I first watched the music video of EXO’s “Don’t Fight the Feeling”, I didn’t know what to expect. I mean, I like EXO. I love some of their songs. But this latest single of theirs? They now own me. In fact, that song is playing in my head as I type this down at three in the morning. I GIVE UP. Here are my heart and soul and clumsiness. Take them, EXO. They are yours now.
I fancy fancy footworks, so it seems
You thought I was done with proclaiming the greatness that is “Don’t Fight the Feeling”? Hahahaha NO. Because that one thing led to another and before I knew it, I was regretting not taking that one job where I was required to spend some time in China. I kept watching the music video and thought I would be all heart eyes over Sehun. But then this part kept catching my eye. It was exactly how I started liking Yugyeom: How he suddenly caught my attention during his part in “Lullaby.” I swear those fancy footworks will be the death of me. 😍
Aside: Watching Lay dance is such a treat. His movements are so fluid and graceful. 👌🏼 🔥 I could watch him forever. Also, I have been reading about him. Much respect for this man. He’s worked so hard to get to where he is now: an artist, songwriter, producer, and more. (There’s a lot. I can’t memorize them all. 😅) He’s accomplished so much at such a young age. Much respect. ✊🏼
Do I have a thing for dimples now?
Before I started fixating on Lay, I started watching “Use for My Talent”, a Taiwanese version of the kdrama “Clean with Passion.” It’s a light and cute romcom. The Korean version was funnier; the Taiwanese version had more romantic excitement. Or maybe, just maybe, it’s because I found Jasper Liu attractive? *gasp!* I’ve seen him in “Triad Princess” but never really gave him much thought. I’m not sure what changed for me in “Use for My Talent.” 😆
The past few weeks had actually been rough. PTSD is real. It’s something I am not ready to talk about yet. I thought I could be brave enough, but I realized I just can’t. I don’t know if I’ll ever be ready to talk about it. And before I end this post, I want to share with you an article about trauma. One that’s written beautifully by Bethany Marcel:
How do we tell a trauma story?
First of all, we don’t have to.
We don’t —
We don’t have to.
But if we do. I believe we can allow it to exist as it desires. I understand the impulse to know every detail. But I have to believe telling our trauma doesn’t need to include flaying ourselves. That it’s enough to say, This happened to me.
This happened to me.
Bethany Marcel, “How to Tell A Trauma Story”
