The last time I blogged, it was about Lay Zhang shirtless, only because Pinterest keeps recommending me those photos. Lay’s sexiest part of the body is his brain, if you ask me. Especially when he’s creating songs. I know Pinterest means well when it keeps recommending me shirtless photos of him, so we’ll leave it at that. But yeah. That man creates, arranges, and produces his own songs. My current favorite is an old track of his called “Peach” because it’s fun and upbeat. A really good tune to listen to while I exercise.
More than two months had passed since I last blogged. What have I been doing during that (unplanned, really) radio silence? I wish I could give a cohesive answer, because I’d like to know, too.
Hello, October!
And holy shit. October is nearing its end and you all know what that means: Halloween is near! Mwahahahaha! It sure feels like the days turn to weeks and then they just blur and blend. And before you know it… KABLAM! Oh hey. It’s almost Christmas. And then New Year. And then Valentine’s Day. Anyone else feels that way? My favorite month is October, even though we don’t have fall here. But I love living vicariously through others’ social media posts. The change of scenery — all those browns and oranges. The nip in the air. Layers of clothes — plaid and neutral colors for me, please and thank you. And Halloween. BUT OF COURSE. Halloween is the next best holiday after Christmas. I am too old to go trick or treating but they release all things horror during that month, so I am all for it. Halloween is my jam.
Oldish kind of soul in a digital world
I am made of handwritten letters and notes. Of scented candles burning softly as I write. I welcome the crisp sound its wick makes during its initial lighting. I love the rainy weather, where everything appears gloomy yet feels grounding. There is no hat trick here. I am either getting old or my soul was old to begin with, the moment I came out of my mother’s womb and screamed out my first lungful of air. Hello, world!
Current read: “Another” by Yukito Ayatsuji
I’m on fire with Japanese horror books. Well, I only recently finished one, “The Graveyard Apartment” by Mariko Koike. And I’m currently reading “Another” but eh. I have more lined up, specifically:
- “Dark Water” by Koji Suzuki
- “Ring” by Koji Suzuki
- “Goth” by Otsuichi
- “Battle Royale” by Koushun Takami
- “The Decagon House Murders” by Yukito Ayatsuji
On self healing and exercise
It started with health goals in mind and is currently being propelled by Lay Zhang’s song “Peach.” Spoiler alert: My goal for exercising is no longer a hundred percent about health. Throw into the mix the oh-so-human desire to look more physically attractive. Also throw into the mix the days when I needed to find that drive, because there ARE days when I just go, “You know what? I don’t even care about how I look anymore.” And then I just throw in the towel and proceed to eating whatever I want. True story.
Wanting and attaining a better headspace is a different beast, though. I could exercise thirty minutes a day, sweat it out, and then feel better afterward. But learning to live with personal issues and baggages while sorting them out? It’s different. It’s very different but I try. And yes, all those sweat sesh helps improve my headspace.
Current mood, in photo
I hope you are doing fine. And if you’re not, I hope you’re doing what you can to help make yourself feel better. Remember: Saying no to others and learning to put boundaries are also important. We can’t help others without helping ourselves first. Be kind to yourself. Future you will thank you later. Sending you warmth and good vibes wherever you may be. Stay strong.
